Hello my readers,
My Queens and Kings, this week I do not have a specific post for you all and I just wanted to take the time to let you know why that it is without leaving everyone waiting for a post.
I thought my healing journey started last year, but I recently went to stay with a friend who was sorting through some of her paperwork whilst I was just chilling and writing my blog. In the mist of sorting her paper work she came across a letter that I had sent to her from Jail. Straight away I said to my friend ‘read it in your head not out loud, because I don’t think I can hear it let alone read it’. (You know when you hear your voice on a video and think is that really how I sound. It was that kind of moment).
Well she read it and at one point she said ‘wow you have actually been on this healing journey for some time’.
Well this changed my view on not wanting to hear what was in the letter, it had me really intrigued, so I decided to read the letter. The letter was written the year before I was released from Jail. In the letter I informed her that I wanted to start putting more focus on myself rather than focusing on other people.
When I talk about my healing Journey, I always state that it started after I left Jail but this letter revealed to me that my healing journey started long before I left Jail. It may even have started before I went into Jail but that is a story for another day.
The letter and a few other things this week such as six weeks of blogging, one to one therapy, group therapy, reading self help books, journaling, life coaching, volunteering with probation, meditation, exercising and honestly as usual there are a few more things that I could add to that list but I will stop there. All the above have really revealed to me that I am working really hard on healing myself, and when I actually paused I realised that I am tired physically and emotionally. It helped me to see that working on healing yourself is a long road and it takes a lot of energy to do it.
The letter revealed that I have been on the journey for a long time and that sometimes it is important to take a step back and really look at the Journey you are on.
Pausing to look at your own Journeys may reveal something to you, it revealed to me that I am working really hard on healing myself and being the best version of me that I can be. It revealed to me that I should remember to take time to check in with my body and take some time out, it also revealed that I should congratulate myself, and for that reason this weekend I am having a break from all of my activities to just chill and not do very much. I hear you all saying ‘but you are writing your blog right now’!!!!!! I just wanted to ensure that I touched base and shared where I was with you all. So on that note until next week folks I’m out! (I cant lie, I am feeling a little guilty about having such a relaxing weekend but you guys know I will be working on those feelings in the weeks to come).
Love you all
P.S Pause, look at your journey so far, congratulate yourself and give yourself permission to have a break.